trustno1

What I learned this week, 1 jun 08

Didn’t write it this Sunday, but here it goes.

I learned that I handle my job related “interactions” way different than my personal ones.

For some reason at work it’s easier for me to just move on and/or express my feelings but when it comes to my personal stuff it’s just another story and I know why…

When it comes to putting myself out there and letting others get to know me and even more get judged by others is just to damn much, I’ve always identified and felt more comfortable in my non-conformists role. In school it was easy, we grouped in cliques and after jr. high I hung around with the outcasts. Had a grand time, don’t get me wrong, but then the scene became the job… and it got hard.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m still having doubts about staying in my field, and not so much the field but the corporate scene, there has got to be someway I can do this but with a bigger purpose in mind than getting money and power, be it for me or the place I’m at.

Work shouldn’t be this hard and also this consuming I’m just waking up to my life and I want to live it, travel, go out on the town, vegg at home, do crafts, do BNmissions, and fall in love with music all over again.