trustno1

I am having an identity crisis (?)…

As I’ve said before; I’m in therapy and currently reading “A New Earth”, and it’s helped a lot. I now don’t take things so seriously, I can separate job from life and that is incredible because criticism is now on the event not in my life, so that is BIG.

And then, I got to chapter 9 and how to know what is your inner purpose. Obviously there is no secret formula or way to know what your purpose in life is, but what it does say is that you should be at peace with the present and live it fully, not for what happened or for a future that as much as you plan will never be exact.

I get that, but now I have to face the fact that I’m not at peace with the present, mainly in regards to work. I do not agree with what’s going on and that always affect me. I have always had this hippie-activist spirit and in some way I know this is the parents fault (I mean that sarcastically) because they live by the Hippocratic oath and no matter what they’ve kept it. This has always made it clear to me that money, power and fame don’t matter if you’re taking advantage of others.

I know it sounds high and mighty but that’s the way I have interpreted my life and have lived up to now and that is what let’s me sleep at night.

This is not a big Erin Brokovich saga, more of a downsizing, outsourcing thing but still disgusting and then you add the fact that two of the companies values are respect and communication and you realize that this just ain’t true.